One Windy Morning

By Joel Hanson

 Stepping out the door, Brock was immediately disturbed by the wind in his face. He checked the weather application on his phone. Brock hated wind more than rain, more than snow, heat, hail or sleet. Wind ruffled your clothes and sent you hat or newspaper flying. Wind got up your sleeves and gave you a chill. Wind messed up your hair. They’ve made hair gel that can stop bullets, but not one that stops moving air. Brock dug the bulletproof hair gel, though. It was also exceptionally bright out today, but he carried sunglasses for just the occasion. You could wear a windbreaker, but they don’t completely stop the wind, they just lessen the sensation. Wind. Right?

Noting that he needed a better weather application, he silenced his phone before putting it back into his pocket in exchange for the silver aviators waiting there. He took his phone back out to snap a picture of himself for Facebook’s sake. “Lookin’ sly, my man.” he said as he uploaded it. Great new default. For all of wind’s downfalls, it did make you look badass. If only he’d had a cigarette dangling from his lip, he’d be a real Steve McQueen, but who could light one in this stupid wind?

“Oh, shit.” he thought, realizing that while fooling around on his phone, he’d been unwillingly heading toward work. He tried to enjoy the few moments he got between stepping out the door and arriving, but it didn’t take any time at all to get there. Once he took that first step out of the door, it was just natural. He couldn’t stop if he wanted to, maybe just slow down. If he did though, who knows how late he’d be? At the end of the week he would joke with his buds over a few beers about going postal. Just running in and shooting up the place. Ha. Ha.

His thoughts were interrupted when his coworker Cheryl approached him. “Hey there Brockie.”

“Oh, morning, Cheryl.” he groaned.

“What?” she yelled.

“Oh, I said good morning! But who can hear a damn thing in this stupid wind?” Brock yelled.

“Ha! Sounds like somebody’s got a case of the Mondays!” she yelled back over the breeze.

“Only every Monday.” he muttered under his breath.

“Well I’m going on in, see you in a few!” she yelled, waving as she continued on to work.

Cheryl was okay, if not a little too bubbly. He could never maintain a conversation that wasn’t work-related with her, but that’s fine. Brock kept work at work. He didn’t really want anything else getting into his job, or his job getting into his private life. Noticing how close he was, he began to ready himself for the grueling say ahead. Brock tugged at the cord.

“Something wrong, Magnus?” yelled Bill, clapping Brock on the back.

“My parachute won’t open, sir!” replied Brock.

“It’s probably just snagged on something, keep pulling on it! The backup’s easier to see! Don’t use it unless you have to! Afghanis don’t like to see parachutes! What are you carrying?”

“M4A1 sir!”

“Have it on standby if you use the emergency! See you on the ground!”

“Sir!” he saluted Captain Briggs as he drifted away. Brock hated Mondays, but someone had to bust up those terror cells, right?

Biography

Joel Hanson is a mediocre writer and amateur cowboy. He spends his spare time golfing, at the beach, napping in his hammock, wooing your little sister, making cocktails, playing PlayStation, cooking things he sees Emeril make, and bowling. His favorite television shows are Archer, Rescue Me, How I Met Your Mother, Jersey Shore, Rob Dyrdek’s Fantasy Factory, and Dragon Ball Z. Joel dreams of someday starting one of those giant bar brawls that you see in old western movies, pulling a gun on an attacker armed with a knife, rewriting Jaws to star the ocean’s real apex predator-the orca, and retiring to someplace exotic with a petite blonde to do his laundry. In the meantime, Joel is content to take long naps, drink tall beers, and cook short orders.

Even Ducks Grieve

by Nina D’Andrea

For many months, a Muscovy duck couple has visited my yard day in and day out without fail. They come to feast on cracked corn and bread. Once full, they leave together. Always together.   Inseparable.  I have observed and even remarked to myself about the male duck’s protective behavior towards the female. He was constantly on alert for predators that might harm his mate.

On Easter Sunday morning, the female duck appeared in my yard alone. I had a feeling that she was upset and maybe even a bit frantic which was quite a departure from her otherwise calm behavior. I greeted her with her usual treat of cracked corn and bread. Once full, she departed for the lake. At dusk she returned again, alone. My sixth sense knew something was awry. Her constant companion was nowhere in sight.  Always together.   Inseparable.  Again she appeared frantic; darting around the yard looking for her mate. She finally gave up and flew off to some secret sanctuary for the night.

She appeared again on Monday morning, alone. That gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach persisted as I realized that her constant companion for the past months was probably gone – never to return. I greeted her with the usual daily sustenance. She ate quickly and left for the lake. I watched for many hours as she swam up and down, up and down – searching. Later that evening my neighbors confirmed what my sixth sense had been telling me for two days – her mate was dead. Earlier that day they had found the male duck floating in the lake.

Several weeks have passed since the loss of her mate and the sweet female duck still returns to my yard each morning – alone. She feasts on cracked corn and bread. However, instead of searching the lake, she lies down under my tree to rest or catch a nap for a few hours. While she is resting, I often sit a few feet from her and talk. I share the sorrow, anguish and loneliness in my heart about the difficulties of losing a mate, often wondering and hoping if he will return home at any moment. We were also always together. Inseparable.

Over the many months of my journey through grief, I have somehow drawn comfort from the daily visits of the ducks.  Always predictable.  Always together.  Inseparable. Her daily visits now remind me that life goes on regardless of my own loss. My intuition tells me that she understands what I am feeling. We bring comfort to one another in an odd sort of way. We are forever kindred spirits on the journey through grief. Even ducks grieve!

A New Beginning

by: Angela Berryman

After she finished with feeding the last of the animals in the barn, Katie headed toward the main house to get the girls ready for their ballet class.  Katie is a stay at home mom, with more chores than your typical housewife. On top of keeping the home clean, caring for her two children she shares with her husband, she also runs their mini-farm. With all her daily chores she also has an ungrateful husband that treats her horribly. She grew up on a farm so she didn’t look at that as the hard work, dealing with her husband Joe is the hardest job to her.

If you were to ask any of Katie’s friends and family, they will tell you that she has a heart of gold, she never gets mad or angry, never yells and will do anything for anyone even without being asked. But her husband tells her the exact opposite making her feel less than nothing. Anytime she gets a chance alone she cries to get some of her frustration out and   almost every night she cries herself to sleep.  Joe never notices though. If he does he doesn’t say anything, not like he cares. She makes sure on a daily basis she tries to keep it together for her children.

Joe is not a typical guy that will have a bad day then will take it out on his wife when he gets home. He calls her mean horrible names on a daily basis, he never shows her any affection, much less tell her that he loves her. Katie knows he doesn’t love her. Why else would he feel the need to cheat on her all the time? He loves having his “women on the side” and he even calls them that right in front of her. He will say things like, “Going out with my girls tonight be back later.” She knows he isn’t just talking about regular girl friends.

After finally reaching the back door she sighed, wiped her feet and tried to think about her girls so that she wouldn’t be so down in front of them. When she walked in the back door she saw Meadow sitting at the kitchen table doing her homework. She walked over to the kitchen sink and washed her hands and asked her, “You about done with your homework Sweetie?”

“I have one more problem,” she told her mom without looking up from her paper.

“Look! I’m a buttafly!” Laura her three year old cried hopping into the kitchen in her tutu.

“Ahh, honey! Look at you! You are a beautiful butterfly. But baby butterflies have wings so that they can fly not hop.” Katie told her as she pulled her into her lap to brush her hair.

Her smiled faded and whispered, “That’s why I hop, because I don’t got the wings.”

Just as Laura finished her sentence, Joe swung the kitchen door open and screams, “What the fuck is your problem?”

“Honey, please not in front of the girls,” Katie pleaded with him as Laura jumped out of her lap and ran out of the kitchen. Katie squeezed Meadow’s hand and quickly told her, “Don’t worry about that now. We’ll finish that in the morning before I take you to school. Go get ready for

“Hey bitch, I am talking to you, what the fuck is your problem?”  He screamed at her again.

“I don’t know what you mean honey. What’s the matter?” she almost couldn’t hear herself talk she wasn’t even sure if he even heard her. She cleared her throat to say it again, “I don’t-”

“I heard what you said you stupid bitch! Where the fuck is my dinner at? I have somewhere I have to be tonight!” He screamed cutting her off.

“Please don’t yell, you are scaring the girls,” she pleaded with him.

“Don’t tell me what to do and answer me already.”

“Joe it’s Tuesday night, I take the girls to ballet class and you know I don’t have the time to cook dinner until I get home. I’m going to take the girls to Wendy’s and get some dinner. If you want I can bring you something home, or you can have something while you are out if you can.” Katie spoke quietly.

“Sure whatever, you are worthless and so are your two brats of children that you have.”

Katie felt her face get hot and grow red. It was a different kind of feeling than she was used to. This time it wasn’t from being embarrassed or being shy. She felt anger growing inside of her. Joe knows as well as she does, that both of those wonderful girls belonged to the both of them.

“How could you say such horrible things about the girls? You know just as well as I do that those beautiful children are yours as well as mine!” she screams at the top of her lungs, grabs her purse and runs out the front door.

The girls were standing at the SUV waiting patiently for her, “Are you girls ready?” she asked them, helping them into the SUV. When she got behind the wheel she sat and thought a minute, how could he say such a horrible thing?

As she drove the girls to their class after getting their dinner, she sat and thought to herself all the horrible things Joe does and says to her. She actually yelled at him! She has never yelled at anyone her whole life.

“Will you please stop screaming at the top of your lungs girls?” Katie asked when they were almost to their class. Even though Katie was still upset with what just happened with Joe she still never gets upset with the girls, no matter how much they carry on.  She can’t stand the fact that they always witness his temper.

“Sorry mom,” Laura apologized.

“Yeah mom we are sorry,” Meadow said. Then Meadow turns to her sister and whispered, “We don’t want to make mom angry with us.”

Even though she thought she was whispering Katie heard her daughter’s sarcastic remark. She could feel her face turn a little red. Even her daughters knew they could get away with anything and that they couldn’t make her mad enough to really get upset.

“Here we are girls,” Katie said giving Meadow a kiss before she hopped out of the SUV.

“Okay Mom,” Laura exclaimed happily, giving her mom a kiss.

“See you at eight Mom,” Meadow said while helping Laura out of her seat.

“Bye girls, have fun and I love you too.” Katie drove away after watching the girls bound up the stairs and into the studio. She loves it when they have their ballet lessons. It is the only chance Katie has to be alone. She always tells Joe that she stays and watches the girls practice, but she never does. She uses this time to be alone and to think, something she so desperately needs.

To kill the time, she sometimes goes to the mall to shop, just walk around, or go to the movies. Her favorite place to go though is the dock. After the way Joe had been to her earlier tonight she felt the dock is where she wanted to be. She loves going to the dock to watch the water, waves, and night boats that floated by. It was such a peaceful way for her to spend her nights alone. When she pulled up to the empty dock, she felt a sense of disappointment. She kind of hoped to see someone there, so that maybe she could be the one to have an affair. Give Joe a taste of his own medicine. I’m so tired of him treating me this way. If it wasn’t for the girls I would have thrown him out on his ass long ago. But would they even miss him? What’s the matter with you of course they would miss them, he’s their father.

Just then she saw a car with no lights pull up.  “Great,” she said aloud, “someone is here to join me after all.” The car stopped and parked right next to a boat that was off to the side.  When the person climbed out of the car, it appeared to be a man. Maybe I can go try and strike up a conversation. Just as she was going to get out of the SUV to see if she could get a closer look at the guy, she noticed that the man was pulling something out of the trunk of his car. She leaned on her steering wheel so that she could see as far as she could. She couldn’t believe it, is that a body he is carrying? She couldn’t be sure and she knew she couldn’t leave without being seen; or him getting her plates and possibly come and find her and the girls. So she sat and watched the man in black pull the body out of the trunk. After he struggled with the body, he finally got it out on the pavement he closed the trunk and dragged the body to the boat sitting at the edge of the dock. When he got to the boat he slung the body over his shoulder and threw it on the boat. He then climbed in the boat himself and started the engine up.

Am I really seeing this? Just as soon as he appeared he was gone in the night with his boat. She quickly drove off and pulled into an empty parking lot to think about what she just saw. How could someone do something so horrible? Could that man really have killed someone and was just going to simply dump them into the ocean like garbage? That’s a horrible thing for someone to do. I can’t believe I just left like that I should have called the cops or something. “Why though?” she thought out loud. It had nothing to do with her why should she get herself into a situation that she’d have no control over? After sitting for a few minutes, she had a crazy idea.  What if I could get away with something as crazy as that? Kill someone and just dump them off into the ocean? What’s wrong with me, how could I think of something so horrible?

After sitting and thinking for quite some time she realized that it was time for her to go pick up the girls. She started the SUV and drove back to the studio, finding the girls waiting outside. When she pulled up they ran out to the SUV, and helped them climb in. “So how did it go girls?”

“It was super fun mom, the best time I have had yet,” Meadow exclaimed. “Laura was having a little trouble tonight though.”

“Oh Laura, honey, you will get the hang of it soon enough,” she told Laura as they started driving home.  When she pulled in the driveway she saw Joe’s car and a car that was unfamiliar to her. He better not have brought some hussy home like he did the last time, she angrily thought to herself. He just recently started bringing them home, and she couldn’t believe that he may have done it this time knowing when the girls get home. She could actually feel a sense of anger growing inside her. She is started to feel sick and tired of the way Joe treats her. If that is a woman in my house…

“Girls we’re here. It looks like your dad has a friend over, so let’s go through the back door so we don’t interrupt them.” She said interrupting her own thoughts. She directed the girls as she pushed her keyless entry button to turn on the alarm.

“Okay mommy,” Laura said happily. If there is a girl in there she didn’t want the girls to see that, she also didn’t want them to see the anger she felt growing inside of her. They have never seen Katie get angry or yell, and she didn’t know how they would react to that.

When she opened the side door to the kitchen nobody was sitting at the table, and Katie felt a sigh of relief when she saw the kitchen was empty. “Go on girls let’s go up stairs and put on your jammies.” She followed the girls up the stairs to get them ready for bed. She did not want them to see or witness anything that could ruin them. Knowing that Joe had a woman with him more than likely she knew the girls would be confused. After getting them in their jammies and tucked them in bed she gave them both a kiss on their forehead and told them goodnight.

After getting the girls into bed, Katie stood at the top of the stairs and listened. “It’s okay baby, she doesn’t care, she is upstairs with her bratty children putting them to bed,” she heard Joe say to someone. At that point she knew it was a woman in the house after all. She could fell the anger growing inside of her again. How could he say I am the one that has been with other people to say that about our children? Now he has the nerve to bring some hussy into my house and treat her so sweetly when he can’t do that once with me or the girls?

Katie felt she had enough, twelve years of Joe’s horrible actions and attitude towards her, she just couldn’t take it anymore. She crept into the kitchen so that Joe and his hussy wouldn’t hear her. She then stood over the knife block that held her biggest knives. I can’t take this anymore; I will just get rid of his ass the same way that man I saw do tonight, what a perfect idea. She pulled out the meat cleaver and stared at it for a minute. Expect I won’t need to take them to the pier I will just feed them to my hungry little animals outside. She couldn’t believe where her thoughts were coming from, but she no longer cared anymore. She ran into the living room with the cleaver raised in her hand and screams, “You no good son of a bitch!” landing the cleaver down on his spine, and striking four more times until he lay dead and bleeding on the tile floor. The woman that was sitting next to him was in horror her mouth wide open, as she brought down the cleaver on the woman’s head, and she too lay bleeding on the tile floor.

Katie stood in horror at the two dead bodies lying on her living room floor. She had to act quickly before the girls came down and saw what had happened. Katie knew she couldn’t carry the bodies out to the barn to feed her pigs unless she made them into smaller pieces. She then started chopping at the arms and legs of both of the bodies, then putting them into a wheel barrel she put up against the house earlier in the day.

After walking out into the barn, she called to them, “Come on pigs, I brought you an excellent snack, I hope you enjoy.” She said as she dumped the remains into the pig pen, watching them furiously eating away at the remains. Tired and exhausted Katie went upstairs to get herself cleaned off so that she could get ready for bed.

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The next morning Katie went downstairs to make some coffee, she felt a sense of relief over her. Joe was no longer there to yell, scream or put her down and she couldn’t be happier. But what would she tell the girls? Just as she thought what to tell them they came running down the stairs.

As they sat down to eat their breakfast she said to them, “Girls I have to tell you something very important. Your dad is no longer living with us. Last night he decided he couldn’t take living with us anymore. I am sorry, but we will be just fine.”

“Really?” Meadow asked very excited, “I am so glad to hear that. Daddy was so mean I know I won’t miss him.”

“Me too I am glad he is gone,” Laura said.

That was all Katie needed to hear, that they wouldn’t miss him after all. She then went to the stove to start cooking the girls some bacon and eggs for their breakfast.

 

The Blue Moon Café

by Charlene Pratt

The air wasn’t saturated with smoke, drinks were

in colorful glassware filled with the taste of sweet,

bitter, dry and sour.

            Chairs without iron, or lightly padded, but filled

with spaciousness, comfort of a folder paper in a

number 10 with a window view.

            Lights were soft, not a darkened room,

aromas of fine cuisine, service of luxury.  Colorful walls

with washable painted menus, changeable like a

piece of clothing.  Continuous seats of comfort

surrounded an outer brick layer, with light splashes of

color.

            The line of silks, linens, cottons,

colors blending, some bouncing off each other.

            Draping bodies always out

the front door with feet in stylish

comfort,.  Couples, single, a party of

four, group of eight, reservations

            should be made for an hour and half wait,

no matter the time.

            Pings of steel drums, violins, long

Strings of a cello rise and fall of

                        the tempo, increase the inner pace of

eating, conversations with a hidden

quickness…slow, quick, slow.

            When it rained never knew when,

if it did no one was ever wet, nor believed of

            Florida heat, days, nights, Chicago cold, wind.

                        No one gets enough, at least once a

month, surrender to yogurt lunch for a

            week or so, an easiness of a habit

without pain.  Others with papers of

green a weekly scene.

            This place I love only opens during

the blue moon at The Blue Moon Café.

Biography
Charlene M. Pratt a.k.a. Summer Harp is a self-published author of two poetry books, Notes on Thoughts, Stir-fry Poetry and chick-lit Conversations with Women…thoughts you didn’t want anyone to know you had. She also loves to cook and read cookbooks as well as experiment with different recipes. She is working on writing erotica a romantica series.

Feel Like Winter

by Kelley Egan

The snow is slowly melting
and I feel my soul drifting away.
My eyes are growing tired
and I realize I am not here to stay.
The trees are growing taller
as my body is growing older.
Soon my skin will crack
and my blood will turn colder.
The moon seems closer
as my days on Earth are numbered.
The rain falls so much harder
like my tears that roll like thunder.
When will
it be?
The last
breath I take?

Eclipse

by Emily Yandell

The moon and sun meet for the first time.
Day and night no longer fight to shine.
The sun tells the moon to hold on tight, as
The sun takes the moon on a marvelous flight.
Day and night fade into one and love is the only light that is shone.
Even star crossed lovers could not beat this love,
This is the kind of love only meant for up above.
The moon so small and frail kisses the sun.
This is proof that the eclipse is almost done.
With a last look they say good bye,
And go back to their places in the sky.

Chaos and Beauty

by Anna Maldzhiev

This blank page –
no longer blank
I call upon my muse for help
I gather my strengths and thoughts
to transform this page into anything else
turn it into a portal
a secret door to something greater
to a world of chaos and beauty
of graceful lines and sputtering clouds
of filth
sensible and nonsensical
into the deepest recesses of the shallowest grave
where red velvety rose pedals create shelter for the worms
and a cover for the pain.

Biography

I like to write.

Goodbye

by Kelley Egan

No misery was quite the same,

no pill on earth

could have eased my pain.

No school could teach you

what i’ve learned

my father will beat you with no concern.

No Religion,

that is correct.

No discussion of resurrect.

No diseased cities

on your face.

Cancer of society-erased.

  Destruction is just a game,

  and all these vices,

  they’re all the same.

 Don’t let them lead you

  down to shame.

 All they preach, it’s all insane.

  Like livin’ in luxury,

  No that’s just crap.

  Live with some peace, don’t fall in that trap.

 The higher you get

 the harder they fall.

 Can’t save themselves, if they crawled.

 Say Goodbye to all

 your silly beasts.

 The monsters from within-deceased.

Dempsey’s Redemption

By: Michael Rodgers

Livingstone Dempsey hooked his finger and pulled lightly on the side of her G-string. He slid the twenty-dollar bill between the elastic and her bare flesh, held his hand against her thigh too long, and let the elastic snap back, trapping the bill against her soft mocha skin. “Be a dear and fetch me another double Chivas, would you Tiffany?”

“You sure you need another one Mr. Dempsey? I’m Amber, remember?”

“Yes! Amber. You’ll have to excuse me, Miss Amber. You remind me of Tiffany who worked over at the Palace before it burned down. Give me a little time and I’ll have all you girls straightened out, then maybe a couple of you darlings will return the favor, if you catch my drift.”

Amber rolled her eyes as she walked away, “One double, coming right up, Mr. Dempsey.”

Dempsey was enjoying his new wealth, though he never noticed that he piqued most women with his arrogance and crude mannerisms. He saw women as objects for his entertainment and gratification and little else. Any other value they contributed to his life would have to be measured in misery and betrayal. The notion never occurred to him that he might be the problem in his relationships. He would never admit it, but it was the reason he spent most of his spare time in strip clubs. Women were easier to relate to if you paid them first.

He had managed to marry once. It was a turbulent affair that he referred to as the lost eight years. An unfortunate by-product of those years was a daughter he hadn’t seen since she was fourteen. Dempsey assumed his ex-wife, Sheila, finally got tired of fighting him for child support or maybe she found another man’s life to ruin. Whatever the issue, she disappeared along with their daughter ten years earlier.

There was a time he felt he loved Sheila, but never gave two shits about her, why can’t you stay home at nights and help with the baby, attitude. He couldn’t figure why she turned into such a bitch. She could choke on a pretzel or get tossed off a high building for all he cared now, so long as she stayed away from his bank account. She reminded him of his ungrateful ex-best-friend Steve, who he fired a few weeks earlier. Still, he did wonder about his daughter from time to time…like now. It must be the Chivas talking, he mused. He struggled to recall her name. Kaitlan, is that it? He thought it was. Naturally, he blamed the breakup, and the modicum of guilt he felt for not staying in touch with his only child on Sheila. After all, she’s the one who disappeared. None of it mattered now. Kaitlan will be fine, he rationalized, after all, she’s a Dempsey.

 

***

That is not to say Dempsey didn’t have it good. He did. He had been fortunate most of his life and had been the benefactor of a lot of help along the way. Those who helped would rarely suffer receiving any credit though, and more often got a proverbial kick in the crotch for their deeds. In his world of self importance, Dempsey considered himself a dominant force in a world of peons and underlings, felt entitled to live for his own pleasures and believed others should fend for themselves. A perfect collation of this attitude would be the way he treated his only friend, Steven Merritt, aka Little Stevie.

Although some distance had grown between them as adults, they had been thick as thieves in their early days and when they were old enough to go to work, they both got hired on at his father’s company, Dempsey Iron. It was a small, but respectable business that built a variety of steel products, but most of the business focus was on building trash dumpsters. Stoner was also an only child. Years earlier, his mother left for parts unknown with some hillbilly guitar player and Dempsey never forgave her the transgression. When his dad died of a heart attack at sixty-three, Stoner was left to handle the reigns of the company. At forty-one years old, he had spent little effort learning either the business or the manufacturing end of things. While Stoner spent most of his nights drinking and his mornings coming in late, Little Stevie Merritt spent his evenings going to school to study business and engineering. Stevie offered Stoner advice on occasion, but was just as often harshly dismissed, “This is my fucking business now, and I’ll run it the way I see fit.”

And run it he did, right into the ground. When the company’s accountant suggested selling the business as the only means of avoiding bankruptcy, Dempsey finally turned to Little Stevie for help. “I thought you’d never ask,” Stevie said, “I’ve been thinking about this place for a long time and I have some ideas I’d like to run by you.”

What Stevie managed to do with the business in five short years was nothing short of miraculous. He negotiated extensions with creditors, laid-off most of the office staff and crew and cut salaries with the promise of hiring everyone back when the business got reorganized. When they did start hiring again, everyone was hired at a lower salary with a profit sharing incentive, which pissed Stoner off to no end. Stevie explained that it would buy the company the time it needed to get back on its feet and that people would work harder, steal less and come in on time if they felt they had a stake in the game. Stoner hated the idea, “They should do whatever I tell them to as long as their paycheck clears every Friday.”

“Yeah, maybe they should, but how has that been working out for you lately?”

Who does this sawed-off little shit think he’s talking to? Helping others always felt like rolling naked in raw fiberglass to Dempsey. Knowing he had no choice only made the irritant more irritating.

The reorganization managed to save the business, along with a revolutionary new dumpster designed by Stevie. Ever reluctant to change, Stevie was surprised when Stoner readily agreed to a new company name that was voted on by the profit sharing workers. Dempsey Dumpsters had a friendly, pleasing ring to it. Soon the company was selling the new dumpsters to nearly every waste management company in the tri-state area. They could barely keep up with the demand. When an engineering firm had to be hired to double the size of the small factory, Dempsey’s accountant sat down with him and explained that he needed to start finding some tax shelters for the company profits. “Exactly why would I need to do a thing like that?” he asked.

“Well, I’ve been examining the books and the projected long term company growth. As near as I can estimate, you are going to become a millionaire by the end of next year and millionaires need tax shelters.”

The following week, Stevie received the accountant’s official projections and approached Dempsey with a proposition that would finally allow him to start reaping some reward for his effort. He laid out a reasonable and workable plan that garnered him a fair, yet considerable increase in salary and a small percentage of the business. Dempsey rewarded Little Stevie Merritt by firing him on the spot. “I’ve just about had it up to here with you and your ungrateful attitude. You’ve been trying to steal this company from me for the last five years and I’m sick of it. This is my fucking company, remember? Look, I don’t need your services anymore. You’ve got two hours to clear your office and get off the fucking property or I’ll call the cops and have you thrown off. Now, get moving and don’t look back.”

“Steal the company? What are you talking about, Stoner? I’ve been underpaid since your dad died and I’ve poured my life into this place. What else do you suppose I’ll do for a living? The economy is crap right now and I‘ve got a wife and two kids to feed, for crissakes.”

“Yeah, I know. That’s a tough one for you, but you’ve got talent. You’ll find something. I hear City Waste is looking for drivers. Do what ever you want to do. I really don’t give a shit. All I know is your career at Dempsey Dumpsters is over. Now, get out!”

***

Dempsey drained the last of his fifth double, got to his feet with a slight wobble and headed for the restroom. On the way by the bar he motioned to Amber, “Hey, Tiffany. One more double and I’m out of here.”

“It’s Amber.”

“Whatever. One more double, then you can cut me off.”

He found and empty stall and pulled the vile from his jacket pocket. He never bothered with those tiny spoons anymore and tapped out a small pile on the back of his hand between his thumb and index finger. This oughta take the edge off the Chivas, he thought as he raised his hand to his face and snorted the white powder.

As Stoner worked his way back to his table, the DJ was introducing the next dancer, “So let’s hear it for the newest member of The Sticky Nipple’s erotic dance team. Come on all you manly whore-dogs, give it up forrr Jaaaasssmiiinnne!”

Dempsey eyed the stage as the lithesome young blonde gyrated and dipped around the dance pole. Damn what a body, he thought; she looks just like Sheila in her younger days. He was just making it back to his table when Amber showed up with his drink. “Are you sure you’re gonna be all right, Mr. Dempsey?”

“I’ll be fine, Darling, don’t you worry about old Stoner. I just had a little pick-me-up, if you catch my drift. Here’s a twenty for the Chivas and another twenty for you if you can get a message to that smoking little number on stage and tell her Mr. Dempsey might need a private dance when she’s done with her set. I’ll tell you what; I’ll give you another twenty if you can set me up in one of the private booths and send her over when she’s done.”

“I’ll see what I can do, Mr. Dempsey.”

Jasmine busied herself with tying the sash on the feather-trimmed robe that barely covered her thong panties as she approached Dempsey’s booth. She opened the curtain, entered and booth and pulled the curtain closed behind her, “You say you were interested in a table dance, Mister?” she cooed.

“I’m interested in whatever it is you’re sending out tonight, Baby. Why don’t you have a seat right here next to Mr. Dempsey, and we’ll talk about it?”

For the first time, Jasmine looked at Dempsey and froze as she recognized the name, then the face. She felt repulsed and nauseous, then quickly regained her composure, “It’s one hundred for two songs, Mr. Dempsey. Paid in advance.”

“A hundred bucks? The other girls only charge fifty.”

“I’m not one of the other girls, Mr. Dempsey.”

Kid Rock’s Cowboy, started playing in the background as Jasmine started rolling her hips from side to side.

“That you are not. You’re a real show stopper.”

“The music’s playing and you’re burning our time, Mr. Dempsey. Dance or no dance?”

Dempsey groped every inch of the stunning young woman with his eyes and weighed the possibilities. “Here’s a hundred.”

Jasmine did not disappoint as she gyred, slithered and slinked around the tight cubicle in ways that would make a dead man hard. She was down to her G-string by the time the second song was through the first verse. Dempsey pawed at her the whole time like a puppy with a new squeak-toy.

Jasmine warned him for the fourth time, “Look, the rules say no touching the girls. One more time and I’ll buzz the bouncer.”

“I’ll make it simple for you, Sweetie. I’ll give you a thousand dollars if you go home with me and let me treat you like a rag-doll,” Dempsey countered as he reached for the small gap between Jasmine’s legs.

Things happened quickly after that as Jasmine hit the buzzer, yanked the curtain open and began to shake, “I don’t think that’s going to happen, asshole.”

“Aw, what do you mean? You look just like my ex and I thought we could get together and pretend we were–”

Jasmine grabbed what was left of the double-shot of Chivas Regal and tossed the contents square in Dempsey’s face. His eyes burned as he tried to rub the toxic liquid from his eyes. “What the fuck is your problem, bitch?”

“You don’t recognize me, do you? I’m your daughter, Kaitlan. Remember having a daughter?”

“Yeah…huh? But, I thought your name is Jasmine?”

“ Jasmine is just a stage name, you idiot. I swear I wish Mom were alive to hear this one. She wouldn’t fucking believe it.”

“Sheila’s dead? How–”

“She died from breast cancer almost nine years ago. Nice of you to be concerned. Didn’t you find it strange when the subpoenas quit coming? My God, you’re dense. I’ve been on my own ever since and had to make some hard choices, no thanks to you. You couldn’t be bothered with family issues, remember?”

She turned to walk away. Dempsey stood and grabbed her arm, “Kaitlan, wait–” he never saw the bouncer approaching as he snatched Dempsey’s hand from Kaitlan’s arm. The man was built like a rodeo bull and twice as hairy.

“Nobody touches the girls, Sir. Club policy. Is this guy bothering you, Kait?”

“Bothering me?” There was fire in her eyes, “Only since I was born. He’s my father. The heartless prick doesn’t even recognize his own daughter. Can you believe that shit? Throw the son-of-a-bitch out in the alley. He’s not good enough to be tossed out the front door.”

Dempsey felt a sharp pain as his left shoulder met the corner of the dumpster. “And don’t come back,” the bouncer said as he slammed the back door of The Sticky Nipple.

Dempsey shouted at the closed door, “See you tomorrow, then. Send my love to Jasmine and the girls for me…and don’t forget to write, you steroid shooting freak.”

Dempsey started to get up, then thought better of it and crawled over and sat, shaking against the wall in the dimly lit alley. He was sure his shoulder was dislocated.  Just look at yourself, Dempsey. What a frigging mess you are. You look like you could use another bump, then we’ll call it a night. This has been too weird even for me. He dug into his pocket and found the vile, then realized he couldn’t move his left arm to help with the cap. Grabbing the cap with his teeth, he twisted the vile with his good hand until the cap separated. He spit the lid across the pavement. I won’t be needing that any more.

He held the vile up to the alley light, almost empty. He rolled the vile in his fingers like a prospector might hold a nugget to the sun, and then threw the vile across the alley where it crashed against the dumpster with Dempsey splashed across the side. Hmph. One of mine. Don’t that just figure. His thoughts swirled as he struggled to make sense of his life. Sheila, the business, Kaitlan, strippers, his father, his love for Chivas Regal, his mother, his stupidity, cocaine, how he managed to plunger his life down the crapper along with all those he was supposed to care about. He sat there for what seemed like an hour, shoulder and soul equally aching and hoping time would offer relief, but relief would not come. He descried his life as a calamity of self-indulgent errors. For the first time in years, Livingstone Dempsey hung his head, broke down and heaved the sobs of a broken man.

***

He didn’t know how long he’d been out, his face sticky with the remnants of emotions both foreign and new to him. He wiped his face with the jacket sleeve of his good arm, his left arm still immobile and throbbing with every heartbeat, yet somehow he felt better than he had in years. It was still dark as he managed to get to his feet. This could take some getting used to, this caring about others, he thought.

Dempsey rarely gave religion a second thought, but he looked skyward and spoke aloud, “If you’re up there, I swear to you as my witness, I’ll find a way to make it up to Kaitlan and everybody else I’ve screwed along the way. I don’t want people remembering me as a heartless prick.” He turned toward the end of the alley and walked slowly as the pulse in his shoulder began to wane and his tight muscles loosened. He noticed the traffic picking up as he made his way down the adjoining street. Early commuters were sleepily making their way to work. Must be getting close to daybreak. I’m going to need to get this shoulder looked at. Maybe I should call the office and leave a message that I won’t be in today.

He fumbled inside his jacket for his iPhone. Still feeling fuzzy, Dempsey began dialing and never notice the curb as he stepped off, tripped and fell into the street. The brakes on the City Waste truck locked up hard, but it was too late to help Dempsey. Inside the cab, the driver reached frantically for the two-way radio, “Dispatch call 911, and hurry! Holy Mother of Christ on a cracker, this is Little Stevie in truck two-forty-three. I just ran over some drunk. He just fell right in front of me and I think he’s still under the truck.”